Day after, day 1 on the road to recovery

Swelling. Bruising. Stuffiness. Pain.

All the things I’m feeling within my chopped liver face, but nevertheless, I am here I am now and I am healing.

With my day off I slept. A lot. But I still had a follow-up to go to and a dentist appointment, but all in all it was a restful day. Tomorrow, until further notice, I will be on light duty at work; this’ll be working in the kitchen, meal prep, et al. I will still see my students but not as frequently (bummer!) and it upsets me a bit…but I need to heal, I keep myself in check with this regularly, as I want to go back to what I was doing prior to getting injured…but I need to heal.

Onward and upward,
Nathanael

Evening thoughts and afterthoughts 5.18.16

Evening thoughts and afterthoughts 5.18.16
 
Gratefulness might not be the word that comes to mind when one’s nose has been fractured and perhaps even broken. Yet it is what came to MY mind as I waited to be checked out the first time around. Sure, I was scared shitless as well, but I found myself centering and praying all the while, and then I was overwhelmed by gratitude.
 
I am grateful for my coworkers who helped me get my student off of me, I am grateful that I was targeted and not someone else, I am grateful for the nurses at my work checking me over, I am grateful for my coworker who drove me to get checked out, I am grateful for the doctors and nurses who tended to my nose, I am grateful for their discovery of a possible nasal hematoma (a blood clot between my nose and brain), I am grateful for the technician who ran my x-rays, and also the one who ran my CT scan, and lastly I am grateful for my supervisor coming to pick me up from the hospital.
 
I might feel and look like chopped liver, but it could be worse. Thank God for good help and pain meds! It’ll be a while till I’m up and at ’em, but I can’t wait to get back to helping out my students to the best of my ability. I was made to do this and so as life continues so I will continue! 🙂
 
Onward and upward,
Nathanael

You have questions, I [might] have answers!

Hi all!

I have a few posts that I will be putting up this week, but for now I will be making a blog post that’ll come out ONE WEEK FROM NOW Monday, May the 23rd addressing whatever questions you might have for me.

Sure it sounds cheesy, and some of your questions may indeed be cheesy, but as a sometimes Redditor I dig the AskMeAnything subReddit very much.

So ask away, leave no stone unturned! I will speak my truth to the most truthiness level ever.

Onward and upward,
Nathanael

Morning musing 4.24.16

Early morning musing 4.24.16

I’m thinking of writing for my eyes only an ongoing narrative called “What Bothers The F*** Out Of Me” or WBTFOUM for short.

Now while it might appear to be over the top, after all I’m using a variant of the “F Word” in the title, it’s a strong word because I have strong reactions to some things; such as social injustice, food deserts, racism, grace and forgiveness being withheld on my part, responding out of fear and not love, mental health stigma internal and external, et al.

All of the things that bother me in this life mainly pertain to human behavior, and not the human in and of himself/herself. Which I think is good, because I can work through reaction and respond with action.

I don’t see human beings as issues, their own or imposed, we all have faults and cracks. Yet this is how the light gets in (as so elegantly sung by Leonard Cohen in Anthem), and so I want to expose my cracks and be illuminated.

I have cracks, I have faults, I have an inner darkness, I have fear of true intimacy. But I have a desire for the light to expose all of me, I want to be seen for who I am and not some cheap imitation that’s “socially accepted” and that’s it.

I was made for more than that,
You were made more than that ☺

Onward and upward,
Nathanael

Church Incognito; An intergenerational, literal and KJV only church; my experience at an Independent Fundamentalist Baptist church

A few Sundays ago my friend Rameel and I attended the church of a woman we met at the Open Mosque. We both arrived a little late, but we were greeted warmly nonetheless, and we found our way to our mutual friend’s pew.

During the time we stood and sang hymns, I took time to get a feed on who made up Valley Baptist Church; a somewhat diverse group ethnically speaking, but there were multi-generational families gathered as well. Most of the hymns I recognized, so I followed along while those gathered sang.

During the meet-and-greet portion of the service, I ran into a guy I have known for a very long time. I talked to him about how long he had been going to that church (as I know him from a church we once attended together). He told me he had been attending there for close to 3 years, and he liked it better than the church we used to attend together because he much preferred reading the KJV only and he liked hymn books over Powerpoint slides.

The message Pastor Hemphill gave that Sunday was on contrition, that is repentance. It was a good message in and of itself, but at times the language found in the KJV threw me off; not that it was off-putting, it’s just not my lingua franca and consequently I got lost in a sea of thee’s and thou’s.

After the service, my friend Rameel met with the pastor because he had some questions. While I don’t know the full nature of their discussion, I was greatly encouraged by pastor Hemphill taking time out to talk to my friend. During this time I talked to Rameel and my mutual friend, and she filled me in on some addition in’s-and-outs of the church, I was encouraged to find out more from her.

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While my views differ from what’s presented at Valley Baptist Church, I was greatly pleased by the hospitality of those my friend and I met, especially by pastor Hemphill. It’s one thing to have doctrines, theological perspectives, and beliefs, but it’s entirely a different thing to put them into practice. What I observed and experienced firsthand was practice over doctrine, and that has made all the difference to me.

Onward and upward,
Nathanael